mindwanderings

I have dreaded this day more than anything else. Tomorrow morning, my honey will have to leave me and go back home again. Today is the realization that my babe will not be there anymore after Sunday morning. We have spent this past week together, just the two of us and it was one of the best times of my life. It wasn’t so much about exploring the city, but it was about getting to know one another a little better. I’ve learned so many things about him that I wouldn’t have been able to know about had it not been us spending this time together. It’s the end of the week, and I am truly going to miss him.

I told him that once he gets up in the morning, he should just leave and not say goodbye to me. I want him to just go because it is going to be so difficult hugging him and knowing that I will not get to see him for the longest time again. A sad look overcame him, as he explained that it would be better to say goodbye because then you will know that you will see the other person again. He asked me if I would feel regret if he did actually left without a word of farewell. Of course, I said I definitely would. He does that a lot. He makes me think of my actions and the possible consequences. I am the realistic one, and he the rational.

It is already difficult for me tonight. I don’t want to close my eyes and then have him gone. I don’t know if I’ll be okay tomorrow. We’ll see how it goes.

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